As I get myself ready for the 2nd MEGMA Conference on Thalassaemia and other Haemoglobinopathhies, in Amman, Jordan from 11-12th November 2016, I can't stop thinking how lucky I am for the wonderful and generous friends and family I have. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being a part of my journey and making it possible for me to participate in this conference.
What I am most excited about my
conquering dream episodes each year that you have made possible is that I get to share my perspective on
how medical professional can help empower patients living with sickle cell and
other haemoglobinopathies around the world. This is my 4
th
presentation at international platform, and the 3
rd year that I will
be sharing My personal journey living with sickle cell and hydroxyurea therapy
during pregnancy and lactation at the scientific programs.
For those who might ask what is
Hydroxyurea (HU), it is a drug that is known to reduce the frequency of sickle
crisis episodes and hospitalizations in SCD patients. However, it is believed
that if HU is used during pregnancy or if the patient becomes pregnant while
taking this drug, the patient should be told of the potential harm to the fetus
as animal testing shows that the drug crosses to the placenta and causes embryo
toxicity, fetal malformations, growth retardation. Therefore, patients are
advised to avoid becoming pregnant while taking HU, or terminating the
pregnancy due to its described potential side effects on baby.
This leaves pregnant sickle women
with a real dilemma: Take a drug with unknown effects on fetal development or
give up a helpful, necessary medication. This I know, because I have been
through this dilemma several times since 2004 until 2009. I have been
discouraged from ever having a baby, I have been told I should focus on
maintaining my health rather than raising a family. My husband had been told
that he must be crazy to have kids with me. I have been advised to terminate
each of my pregnancy because I conceived on HU.
Past 11 years, I have had 3
pregnancies each experience different regarding HU therapy. 1st
pregnancy, I had a miscarriage and sever sickle crisis, because I had been taken
off hydroxyurea and I didn’t know that transfusion was an option for me.
My 2
nd
pregnancy, I had been off hydroxyurea, transfused every 2 weeks, went in to
severe sickle crisis during 2
nd trimester and barely made it to my
37
th week, where he was delivered early. Alhamdhullilah, our
handsome lil’ hero Eelaan, gave me a whole new strength to make me realise that
anything is possible. I felt like my dream had come true, and no one is going
to stop me from dreaming the impossible. The moment he was born our lives
changed completely.
Having a child of my own to call
me mom was a dream I thought was beyond my capability. And I realized I had
more to do and dream a little bigger. My family and friends thought I am crazy
to even think for a second baby of all the things that I had gone through, but
I had long realized that we never know our possibilities until we try.
I had the courage to go through
my last pregnancy while taking HU.
Although I was nervous of the unknown, about
the effect of
Hydroxyurea on
baby’s growth, or any abnormality physically and intellectually, I was stressed
thinking what if the scans doesn’t detect. I kept mentally preparing myself for
the worst. And I was ready to accept whatever may be the outcome of this
pregnancy. However anxious I was about not knowing what it might do to baby in
the long run, I always knew I had made the best decision to continue with the
pregnancy and
Hydroxyurea
therapy.
I had amazing, healthy and active
40 weeks before welcoming her into our hands. I kept a close watch on her, at first it felt
like such an achievement when she crosses every milestone and she’s
establishing them quick. She’s active and a very happy girl. Just like any
other 2 yr old would be. My lil’ warrior Eiliyah, Masha Allah, the best decision
ever. I believe that my daughter is the hope everyone like me
is looking for.
Deciding to breastfeed the baby
was a hard choice, because I had to go back to HU, and everywhere I read it states that Hydroxyurea is excreted to milk and has the
potential of serious adverse reactions and may cause harm to baby. When Eelaan
was born, I chose to stop HU and feed him, biggest mistake ever. I went into
severe crisis that put me in ICU multiple times and he was not even 2 yrs at that
time. I had lost my spleen, was iron overloaded from all the transfusions I had,
was diagnosed with avascular necrosis of my right hip, and I had no choice but
to go back on HU.
With this experience, I decided I
would continue HU even after my lil’ warrior Eiliyah was born. I have taken a
huge risk of having a baby while taking
Hydroxyurea and I saw no point in stopping the med to breastfeed the
baby. I struggle with my doctors to continue
Hydroxyurea while breast and bottle-feeding at the same time. So far
I have not noticed any negative side effect of HU on her, Alhamdulillah!
Many women are
in fear, when it comes to pregnancy and raising a family, since we are reminded
of how risky it is to become a mother. In my opinion, doctors who are unaware
that HU can improve the health of sickle cell patients during pregnancy is
taking a huge risk by stopping it since it would mean the recurrence of sickle
complications that could be life threatening for mother and baby.
It’s important
that doctors find it in themselves to empower patients and encourage them to be
the best they can be. That is why this journey of conquering dreams is so
important to me. I hope the story of my personal journey can open the
possibility for others like me to have their dreams come true.